Is this the way to treat a lady?

I'm speechless! Totally got surprised by people who not escort lady to get car at late night after work. There is really different kinds of people in the world, but didn't expect that there is so much of these kinds of people in my circle.

World has changed, the world is not longer as simple as we expected. Countryside people is much more friendly and simpler. Ever since start work, I felt like the sky no longer the same. It is indeed the same just that my perspective has changed. People no longer caring to each others. Maybe like what others say, if you can adapt then you will survive, if you can't, there is so many reasons got you out of the place you wished to mix with.

Today I'm quite emo~ Recently, there is so many difficulties in my life until I barely can breath.

I started to become unhappy, unhappy that aging has appeared in my face though I have taken so many efforts to take care of it. I am unhappy about why I always lose focus whenever I study. I'm unhappy that why I paid so many hard works, still I think that I'm more stupid than average people. Should I give up this realistic circle that I used to dream to stay longer? What can I do? I'm such a loser.

Energy start to become lower

I really felt tired after went through the whole 3 weeks of rushing classes and working... It is tiring. Everyday have to wake up early at 7am start to jam jam jam... work work work.... rush rush rush... class class class. When the time come to bed, it's already 11 pm. Everyday also go through the same cycle..

No TV, no steady dinner and no yumcha session, I become demotivated sometimes, I hope what I did now, will have a return in later on.

Seriously, it's not so bad when I am still a junior now. If I am a senior, I don't think that I reach bed at 11pm, the life is even worst.

Audit = no life even worst if the client is nasty and sarcastic.... I hate nasty client... Don't bully Junior!! I know you are knowledgeable. Just a matter of time, I'll be smarter than you.

Is the move right?

Today I just talked to my counsellor that I wish to be assigned to any insurance/ investment bank / bank engagement. So far, I'm doing all the unit trust fund job, which I think it's time for me to move forward. As I really far more slower than my peer.

But I'm not sure whether it is a right move as it means that I put myself busy. I'm kind of person who like to go back home early. At least this is what I want most. Really caught in the dilemma...

You are not in my shoes

You just don't understand what I have been through, I don't expect that you should have the experience that I have. But I do expect you to put some respect to me. Especially, in front of crowd....
My experience was not so awesome... the bitter part is very bitter, as the sweat part is damn sweat... Sometimes, people just had experienced how bitter it is, when it comes to the sweat part, they will fully enjoy for sure.
But you seem not understand this concept as you are having the consistent taste all the while. While, this blog is to dedicate to those who don't understand that "don't judge a man" and "listen to other's explanation".
Haiz.. Life is so hard to suit all the people.. What I can do is fake a smile in front of crowd and sad in a place where people can't see...

Anticipated for confirmation

It is come to the end of March, I'm looking forward to be confirmed by EY that I am able to contribute to EY anyhow, it is seem like a recognition for me.

It's quite surprise that people who told me how they dislike their senior and how to so sick of their work will get confirmation early. I am wondering if you are really the way you described then how come you will be recognised so fast??? How this weird thing can happen.

So far life in EY made me learn things everyday though self learning is more at most of the time. How wish I could work with most of the senior so that I can observe their skills when they are completing their work.

Most importantly, I found my way here, previously, I always look forward to quit in my previous job but this kind of thought is no more after working here. I love work with youngster as their passionate and their initiatives.

Finally, I wish keep this enthusiasm in this job!! Though I have to audit alone without any senior or manager around for guidance, kinda hard for me, but if I can make it then I proved something else to me again. Sin Yin, you must add oil! Always achieve a harder target!

CNY

It is reaching the end of Chinese New Year, I'm kinda sad as this year totally different from last year. Last year, I'm still a Uni student, but this year I've started to work. What makes difference? Whn you are a student, you can choose to skip class to continue CNY celebration but why when you are a staff, it cannot be the same? This is the answer I learned my colleague! When you are a student, you pay to Uni! However, when you are a staff, your company pay you instead! Make sense? I totally agreed with her answer without any debate.

From Jan till now, I'm glad that I'm still alive in GFS - EY. Moreover, from find it difficult to do this work to started to love this job. Hopefully this enthusiasm will still keep going untill very very long time. Instead GFS made my life happier maybe because their account more tidy and reliable which unlike other department.

Another thing I feel great about is I still manage to hold tight my 3 new year resolutions till now but still left one I yet to improve on is study!

Study always an avoidance for me. Sometimes I rather choose to work than study in which I also don't know why????? CG subject is always a killing subject for me coz without any figure and bored~~~~ I love my CNY break!

My past 3 weeks life

Can take a very very short break i.e 1 day rest after finish my 3 weeks engagement with Polymatech client in Shah Alam. It has been so tiring where every night have to sleep very late and wake up very early in the morning to work.

My life during that 3 weeks is solely eat, work, sleep ~ These 3 elements only. Haven't start my revision at all. But going to start by this week onward.

However, this post created mainly to praise my this engagement Sher Leen - she is awesome.

When the first time I met her, she acted very cool which made me felt scared about her.

After getting know her better, I found that she is a lovely person . She wont mind to keep repeat the answer that I have asked so many times but I forgot.

Even the clients also like her so much. She worked even harder and smarter than me.

As the personal life, I do think that she do better than me too. She enjoy swimming, gathering with friends and clubbing who is a truly work life balance people. I'm so glad I was assigned under her, I hope someday we can work together again since work with her is really enjoying and motivating. Else I wont pass the one month time so fast in EY.

Thank you very much Sher Leen, you have more or less inspired me and motivated me. Life is good when working with you. You never angry with me though I did many many stupid things for my job. I truly hope that you will get what you want in your future since you are so dedicated to your life and job. I should treat you as my role model.

I sincerely hope that all my coming seniors can as nice as her! God bless me have all the luck every time. Hopefully every seniors in EY can as nice as her. So that it will create a harmony and less stressful life when we are working together.

Determined Hardship for my coming first 4 years

I can say that it will be a hardship for me in joining audit as I need to work overtime most of the time moreover have to cope with my study! I hope I can stand for it for at least 4 years. I need some support from friends and family.

Indeed, working in EY is really a rewarding career! Once determined, you must committed to it. Perhaps I will have no time to social with friends but I will have the skills, knowledge and competitiveness over others. But now what I lack of is a VERY VERY strong determination so to make me more committed. These few days always there is a thought in my heart that I am tired. Especially, I worked till 1 am on last friday night. It is first time ever in my life to work till so late.

I need to motivate myself to get used to this kind of life and think that it is comfortable for me to work in that way as I grow faster than the way I used to be last time. Other than that, it's a challenging task for me to drive to different client place and plan my time ahead of so many things that need to be settled as soon as possible. Moreover I need to take care of my study and health simultaneously.

I missed the life in HP where I can joke and had fun around with some friendly gang like shu yee, shann, ein ein, josephine and juliette. Nevertheless, I have lesser and lesser time for myself to contact with them via msn. I need to focus my job therefore I stop msn during work. I hope our friendship will not end in that way and I will try somehow to contact and fwd some great message to you all via hotmail or msn. I really miss you all.

Friends, I really need your support to say that the things I'm doing now is worthy after few years later. I need more energy to fulfill this! I am human being~~ I need some time for myself to rest , study and work. I hope that I can do it!! Yes , tell myself!!