Sorry for letting those love me down!

It has been half month I didn't update my Blog. Finally I update it. Because it has been many and many things happen and change my life within half month.

Start from career, I decided to leave Hewlett-Packard as I got the offer from Ernst & Young for the position of Audit Assistant. I know this decision is very very tough enough as my senior has guided me throughout this half year. Sure I let them down and wasted their effort in guiding me. It makes me feel guilty. However, I know myself that I will never satisfied if I never try audit. I would like to thank HH for guiding the interview tips so that I looked confident during the interview with Senior Manager of Ernst & Young.

Second issue, I decided to have calm period with my boyfriend, I think it's time to grow and learn independent. I've been so sick of long distance love. As time goes by, the feeling getting lesser and lesser. I know this decision will hurt HH and I've been avoiding this problem for years. I let him down, let people around felt disappointed on me. But I know the wound will grow bigger if the relationship continue in this unhealthy way.

Hopefully, time will heal all these things. I am just a tiny character in this world, just want to live simple, passion with my initial career goal.

What's the point??

I know that I am not supposed to make mistake! But I don't like too.... You thought I love to do so?? Or I born to love trouble? I just don't know ! Don't know!

Once there is an issue, is it the right way to solve it before you are questioning? If you think that I am embarrassing you then you can go ahead to scold me but please do this only after the problem is resolved. Stupid stupid stupid. Feel Like working in HP like you're dead once you make mistake.

Really demotivated! Workplace is a place that wont allow you to make any single mistake. I hate myself being that way ! I don't want to become like that! Fed Up!

Is it because i am stupid? Apa perempuan ni mau? Sakit hati la ada boss macam ni! Sob sob ~~ Heng! Haiz

I hate this, for sure i am in the wrong path in my career as this is not what I expecting.

Finally able to relax myself

Hehe... After graduate, I never been to clubbing. But last friday, I got my kaki to club ultimately. It's so fun where I can feel the bass on the dance floor moreover I can dance freely without any disturbance.

This is why I loved MOS most where no smoke at all in the club. Anyhow, I still prefer remix hits songs which are not available on that night. However, quite surprisingly, my kaki never complaint bout that to me as I was the one who insist for MOS.

I can stop thinking during dancing as I need not to bother any job related matters or stress. I can be myself. Non stop dancing from 12 sth am to 2.30 am. It's cool!

After club, having a beer for myself is still within my budget! meeting an old friend who used to date my sis but i dun think he would recognise me. ..

But there is a price pay behind this fun, I got sick next day as I have not enough sleep and weak. I do really think that it is worthy since I have encountered many unexpected and sad things after graduate but I never find a way to release it. This opportunity really got me crazy. . Thanks for my club kaki too. .