CNY

It is reaching the end of Chinese New Year, I'm kinda sad as this year totally different from last year. Last year, I'm still a Uni student, but this year I've started to work. What makes difference? Whn you are a student, you can choose to skip class to continue CNY celebration but why when you are a staff, it cannot be the same? This is the answer I learned my colleague! When you are a student, you pay to Uni! However, when you are a staff, your company pay you instead! Make sense? I totally agreed with her answer without any debate.

From Jan till now, I'm glad that I'm still alive in GFS - EY. Moreover, from find it difficult to do this work to started to love this job. Hopefully this enthusiasm will still keep going untill very very long time. Instead GFS made my life happier maybe because their account more tidy and reliable which unlike other department.

Another thing I feel great about is I still manage to hold tight my 3 new year resolutions till now but still left one I yet to improve on is study!

Study always an avoidance for me. Sometimes I rather choose to work than study in which I also don't know why????? CG subject is always a killing subject for me coz without any figure and bored~~~~ I love my CNY break!

My past 3 weeks life

Can take a very very short break i.e 1 day rest after finish my 3 weeks engagement with Polymatech client in Shah Alam. It has been so tiring where every night have to sleep very late and wake up very early in the morning to work.

My life during that 3 weeks is solely eat, work, sleep ~ These 3 elements only. Haven't start my revision at all. But going to start by this week onward.

However, this post created mainly to praise my this engagement Sher Leen - she is awesome.

When the first time I met her, she acted very cool which made me felt scared about her.

After getting know her better, I found that she is a lovely person . She wont mind to keep repeat the answer that I have asked so many times but I forgot.

Even the clients also like her so much. She worked even harder and smarter than me.

As the personal life, I do think that she do better than me too. She enjoy swimming, gathering with friends and clubbing who is a truly work life balance people. I'm so glad I was assigned under her, I hope someday we can work together again since work with her is really enjoying and motivating. Else I wont pass the one month time so fast in EY.

Thank you very much Sher Leen, you have more or less inspired me and motivated me. Life is good when working with you. You never angry with me though I did many many stupid things for my job. I truly hope that you will get what you want in your future since you are so dedicated to your life and job. I should treat you as my role model.

I sincerely hope that all my coming seniors can as nice as her! God bless me have all the luck every time. Hopefully every seniors in EY can as nice as her. So that it will create a harmony and less stressful life when we are working together.

Determined Hardship for my coming first 4 years

I can say that it will be a hardship for me in joining audit as I need to work overtime most of the time moreover have to cope with my study! I hope I can stand for it for at least 4 years. I need some support from friends and family.

Indeed, working in EY is really a rewarding career! Once determined, you must committed to it. Perhaps I will have no time to social with friends but I will have the skills, knowledge and competitiveness over others. But now what I lack of is a VERY VERY strong determination so to make me more committed. These few days always there is a thought in my heart that I am tired. Especially, I worked till 1 am on last friday night. It is first time ever in my life to work till so late.

I need to motivate myself to get used to this kind of life and think that it is comfortable for me to work in that way as I grow faster than the way I used to be last time. Other than that, it's a challenging task for me to drive to different client place and plan my time ahead of so many things that need to be settled as soon as possible. Moreover I need to take care of my study and health simultaneously.

I missed the life in HP where I can joke and had fun around with some friendly gang like shu yee, shann, ein ein, josephine and juliette. Nevertheless, I have lesser and lesser time for myself to contact with them via msn. I need to focus my job therefore I stop msn during work. I hope our friendship will not end in that way and I will try somehow to contact and fwd some great message to you all via hotmail or msn. I really miss you all.

Friends, I really need your support to say that the things I'm doing now is worthy after few years later. I need more energy to fulfill this! I am human being~~ I need some time for myself to rest , study and work. I hope that I can do it!! Yes , tell myself!!

Happy New Year and a Review for 2009

Happy 2010!! It's time to review what I did last year 2009! Regardless happy, sad, stupid or dangerous things I did, it's worth to review it!

Going through the hard work on Thesis, Viva and preparation for final exam and plenty of assignment and presentation. My Uni housemates and classmates still able to hang out more so that we would have a lots of great memories before graduation. It's so cool though the day and night are so busy.

First, confronted the sadness where I have to separate with all my Uni friends and lovely housemates when we graduated. The last night of last paper over, we bought a lots of wine and beer. Get a park to continue drink and cried. I remembered the scene we hugged each others tight and cried. It's so unforgettable! We even clubbed crazily for the last meet up. After the separation, I was damn sad alone, back to kepong, having my first surgery in my life for my sinus nose! I'm here alone without hearing the crazy sound around, totally not get used to. Nostalgia AGAIN, AGAIN and AGAIN. I had no idea how long I need more to miss you all lesser and lesser.

Second, it's about job! I went for Singapore twice for training purpose and meet up with my Singapore Colleagues. They are so friendly and nice to me. But cost accounting is not always my favourite and I don't want force myself continue doing on something I dislike. That's why there will be a brand new challenging job awaiting in 2010. I will miss back the working time in HP all the time for sure. As I quite sure that I will have a tough time in EY due to the tight work deadline and I ought to learn to fall in love in my Audit Job! Fast fast let me fall in love with this position! I love audit and I love study ACCA ~~~

Third, I'm gonna wear my eyes to get know people. I'm gonna stop club and stop alcohol in 2010. I took the last beer in 2009 and I'm not going to do it again. As a result of clubbing in 2009, I felt that my heart can't cure much pain instead burdening me more afterward. I knew a ugly truth that cannot be revealed for sure. Perhaps enjoying the music and dance in my own little room will be a healthier way. I never underestimate my ability to forget and let go this unhappy things.

Forth, I set 2010 resolutions for myself!

1. Work smart, hard and learn to fall in love with my job

2. Study smart and hard

3. Keep in touch with friends whenever there is a time

4. Take good care of my health - No club and alcohol

What is the feeling of being cheated?

A girl friend of mine told me recently that she is confusing over relationship. But I can't help much on her, all I can do for her is reminding her all the time that Love is not everything. Something is more important than Love. Moreover, in this complicated era, you won't know who is wearing mask or who is the poker face to make fun of you without thinking of any serious relationship with you. I really hope that she can recover from this dilemma. I always knew what I said to her is easy, but for her, it is totally a hardship to get rid of the memory she used to have with the guy she admired.

I sincerely hope that she can forgot the man who used to make fun of her and wish her have a good start at the new year! I support you always! Be strong girl!

We should appreciate

Appreciate every moment when we are healthy. Just got heard a sad story from my Uni friend that she underwent another surgery again this year. At the end of last year, she underwent a throat surgery but soon later mean now she underwent another colon surgery. As compare my own created sadness, I found that I am lucky enough as I need not went through what she had gone through.

However all the time, I complaint to myself and people around that I'm not happy. Actually I am lucky as God always granted me a healthy body but I felt bad now as I destroy part of it by clubbing and drinking. After hearing my fren's story, I have the strong determination to get rid of these bad habit. It's for my own sake and it's also a way to show our grateful to God!

I shouldn't do something stupid to release my stress! It's totally a wrong wrong way! I'm gonna say I will stop the way I used to be. Live healthier will be happier!

Leave me alone

I just need some time not to contact with you, leave me alone. I have explicitly repeat my decision. Hope you understand the reason I did this behind.

I don't want to hurt you further as time goes by, wound will grow deeper. No feeling is always the main point, you should ask people around why we still have to be together if only one side have feeling.

You should learn to get through this, whatever you think I owe you, I will repay you but I wont be together with you anymore. However, you always welcome to become my friend.