Happy New Year and a Review for 2009

Happy 2010!! It's time to review what I did last year 2009! Regardless happy, sad, stupid or dangerous things I did, it's worth to review it!

Going through the hard work on Thesis, Viva and preparation for final exam and plenty of assignment and presentation. My Uni housemates and classmates still able to hang out more so that we would have a lots of great memories before graduation. It's so cool though the day and night are so busy.

First, confronted the sadness where I have to separate with all my Uni friends and lovely housemates when we graduated. The last night of last paper over, we bought a lots of wine and beer. Get a park to continue drink and cried. I remembered the scene we hugged each others tight and cried. It's so unforgettable! We even clubbed crazily for the last meet up. After the separation, I was damn sad alone, back to kepong, having my first surgery in my life for my sinus nose! I'm here alone without hearing the crazy sound around, totally not get used to. Nostalgia AGAIN, AGAIN and AGAIN. I had no idea how long I need more to miss you all lesser and lesser.

Second, it's about job! I went for Singapore twice for training purpose and meet up with my Singapore Colleagues. They are so friendly and nice to me. But cost accounting is not always my favourite and I don't want force myself continue doing on something I dislike. That's why there will be a brand new challenging job awaiting in 2010. I will miss back the working time in HP all the time for sure. As I quite sure that I will have a tough time in EY due to the tight work deadline and I ought to learn to fall in love in my Audit Job! Fast fast let me fall in love with this position! I love audit and I love study ACCA ~~~

Third, I'm gonna wear my eyes to get know people. I'm gonna stop club and stop alcohol in 2010. I took the last beer in 2009 and I'm not going to do it again. As a result of clubbing in 2009, I felt that my heart can't cure much pain instead burdening me more afterward. I knew a ugly truth that cannot be revealed for sure. Perhaps enjoying the music and dance in my own little room will be a healthier way. I never underestimate my ability to forget and let go this unhappy things.

Forth, I set 2010 resolutions for myself!

1. Work smart, hard and learn to fall in love with my job

2. Study smart and hard

3. Keep in touch with friends whenever there is a time

4. Take good care of my health - No club and alcohol

What is the feeling of being cheated?

A girl friend of mine told me recently that she is confusing over relationship. But I can't help much on her, all I can do for her is reminding her all the time that Love is not everything. Something is more important than Love. Moreover, in this complicated era, you won't know who is wearing mask or who is the poker face to make fun of you without thinking of any serious relationship with you. I really hope that she can recover from this dilemma. I always knew what I said to her is easy, but for her, it is totally a hardship to get rid of the memory she used to have with the guy she admired.

I sincerely hope that she can forgot the man who used to make fun of her and wish her have a good start at the new year! I support you always! Be strong girl!

We should appreciate

Appreciate every moment when we are healthy. Just got heard a sad story from my Uni friend that she underwent another surgery again this year. At the end of last year, she underwent a throat surgery but soon later mean now she underwent another colon surgery. As compare my own created sadness, I found that I am lucky enough as I need not went through what she had gone through.

However all the time, I complaint to myself and people around that I'm not happy. Actually I am lucky as God always granted me a healthy body but I felt bad now as I destroy part of it by clubbing and drinking. After hearing my fren's story, I have the strong determination to get rid of these bad habit. It's for my own sake and it's also a way to show our grateful to God!

I shouldn't do something stupid to release my stress! It's totally a wrong wrong way! I'm gonna say I will stop the way I used to be. Live healthier will be happier!

Leave me alone

I just need some time not to contact with you, leave me alone. I have explicitly repeat my decision. Hope you understand the reason I did this behind.

I don't want to hurt you further as time goes by, wound will grow deeper. No feeling is always the main point, you should ask people around why we still have to be together if only one side have feeling.

You should learn to get through this, whatever you think I owe you, I will repay you but I wont be together with you anymore. However, you always welcome to become my friend.

Decision need to be made finally made

Maybe i am hurting you, but it seems like if I don't do this now, it will be more painful later on. You may hate me for being a cold hearted lady but one thing I learnt from my job is try to fix or resolve any problem when there is an issue there.

People come and go, anyone can survive without me. I'm just a tiny tiny one. Hopefully life will change after entering into a busier life. I don't want to hurt anyone around me anymore.

Stay strong, stay young, stay happy with a positive way. Most importantly, stay away from clubbing as I had the great memory for old times. That's just enough for me.